Spuntires

I had that Jorah Mormont friend all along. Pasensya na nga taas. Nahinumduman ra nako siya.

I met him way back 2006 when I was still in college. Our friendship bloomed due to his kindhearted nature and our interest in discussing various things. But as months passed, he saw more than that. He courted me and told me of his plans to take me as his wife. But I never looked unto that same road. I felt his sincerity but I wasn't interested. I just see him as a friend. Isa pa, gusto ko ng Katolikong Pinoy (both categories doesn't describe him).

He knew my love stories and he was there to comfort me through some trying times with inspirational/motivational messages even though we were far apart. He'd often tell me that GOD is LOVE. And whenever the time comes that another Daario Naharis would go by and leave my life, he would again try to pursue me (doing so without destroying our friendship).

I would often see a Chat Head pop and it goes "Hey Bella, how's it going?" or "Hey Belle, you look beautiful". And I'd casually reply with my whereabouts such as "I'm off to work, etc. Have a great day." Sometimes I wouldn't even reply to avoid a scenario that happened before wherein a lover got jealous even though he knew he's just a friend. He met someone but they didn't last for a year. Still, he'd send random "Mahal kita" messages for years (sometimes tailed with a "Too bad you have a bf"). I just got used to that.

Just this morning, I was reminded by Facebook that it's his birthday. I'd often be the one to greet him first (as what he stated). It was because we have different time zones. I was about to greet him but then I read a post from his timeline... "RIP".

He died a year ago a day after his birthday. Kana gung gikumot akong dughan pagkabalo nako. He's supposed to be 33 years old today. I looked through our last conversation and it was during his 32nd birthday. He asked me how I was and I replied with "I have a toothache." Had I known it would be the last, I should've talked with more sensible topics just like when we were younger. 🤦🏼

In my mind, mura gyug katong time na nihilak si Khaleesi pagsunog kang Jorah. [LONG PAUSE]

You're always a good friend to me and I'd treasure that forever. Goon too soon but never forgotten. Happy birthday in heaven "Spuntires".

09.25.13 AYOS TO

AYOS TO

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092513

14:06

I used to stare when you pass by

Now I would gander every corner but your eye

I used to delight that sweet smile

Now I tremble with anger that lingers for quite a while

I used to stiffen when I’d feel your breathing

Now I shudder remembering that awkward feeling

I used to wait for the time for both of us to be alone

Now I’d rather go anywhere on my own

I used to love the mere sitting next to you

Now I despise getting any closer than a meter or two

I used to give in to that captivating sensation       

Now I avoided every opportunity because I still have a reputation 

07.15.13

I wonder what will become of us.

Shall we pursue something more than this,

Get back to the way it was,

Or rather stay as it is?

Should we succumb to our hearts' desire,

Test the balance of wind and fire,

Muster every courage we ought to require,

and contrive for any trials that'd transpire?

© bhvb

To the-boy-who-cried-wolf:

It's said and done. And after all that you confessed, I still don't know what to believe: whether this time you're telling me that TRUTH that what you did was a lie or you're STILL LYING that what you did was a lie. 

You know how deep this hits me. 

Bottom line: after all this time you're still in my heart

...and it pisses my amygdala off big time.

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The Tale That Lies Beneath An Impoverished Vampire's Tea 07.19.13

Few months ago during a radio show's commercial break, I heard a joke about three vampires in a restaurant who were about to take their dinner. The joke went something like this (not precisely though 'cause I've had a vague memory about it):

Waiter: May I take your orders, gentlemen?

Rich Vampire: Fresh whole blood please.

Middle-Class Vampire: Dinuguan* please.

Poor Vampire: Hot water please!

The others who heard the third vampire where troubled as he continues to rummage his bag. Delighted, he took out a used sanitary napkin (yes, one that was used by a female human being) and used it as a teabag.

*Diniguan is a Filipino savory stew of meat and/or offal (typically lungs, kidneys, intestines, ears, heart and snout) simmered in a rich, spicy dark gravy of pig blood, garlic, chili (most often siling mahaba), and vinegar. The term dinuguan comes from the Filipino word dugo meaning "blood".

So much about that.

One of my suitors asked me a few times of the reason behind the bouts of mood swings, sudden appearance of a lot of pimples, and an increase in appetite. Well, my dear, you've just noticed some of the symptoms that I am having PMS.

• Acne
• Swollen or tender breasts
• Upset stomach, bloating, constipation, or diarrhea
• Headache or backache
• Appetite changes or food cravings
• Joint or muscle pain
• Trouble with concentration or memory
• Tension, irritability, mood swings, or crying spells
• Anxiety or depression
• Dysphoria (unhappiness)
• Stress
• Difficulty in falling asleep (insomnia)
• Changes in libido

Every month, I do not experience all of these at the same time neither do they appear successively each month...except for one: FOOD CRAVING.

These are some of the few cravings that I've had for the past few months this year.

 Pochero for the month of February

Taho for March

La Tundan for June (specifically "gwapa" and with twins)

Due to these cravings, some people would jokingly say that I may be pregnant or something. Sheesh. Not now darlings. I'm not yet married. As for me, there are times I would either crave for something, or other times do not crave at all for a specific delicacy but would constantly look for something to devour errrr chew, I mean.

Well here's the point, I expected my period to come by July 14 to 16 and it turned out I was delayed by a few days. Earlier this morning, about 4 a.m., I was awakened by a sudden gush of fluid as I rolled over. Yes boys and girls, it's my first day for this month.

Ahh, if you gents knew just how this phenomenon could cause different kinds of emotions to every man and woman in the world:

• Mothers who would continually hear about their little girl's (who haven't had their menarche yet) endless chatter of excitement, would be bombarded with a lot of queries about its "arrival"
• For those who are expecting for its "finish line" and their significant others who would be irritated by the extreme hormonal effects and a little World War III every now and then --oh yes, believe me (*raises hand*)
• It could mean impending doom for those whose periods are just around the corner
• Sometimes, its arrival could disappoint those who are planning to have their bundle of joy
• Other times, having it would cause relief to those who have a family history of polycystic ovary syndrome or some sort of hormonal or reproductive system related problems
• Mollification for those who've had a good time with their partner but still weren't planning to have their offspring yet
• Oh and yes,that poor little vampire who just happened to pass by...;)

By: Belle Hyacinth Bata